Like so many others across the world, I have felt the pinch of lockdown and the general uncertainty surrounding COVID-19.
My day job is working part-time at a well-known supermarket. As a result of the pandemic, they have had to reduce their staff schedules – both now and for the foreseeable future.
This left me unable to rely on overtime to support my family, and after a week or so of scouring job sites, reworking my CV more times than I care to count, and selling everything that was not screwed down, I had an epiphany.
I sat and reflected on what my skill and my passion is, and how I could turn it into a profitable career. Many a brainstorm, doodle, and diary entry later, I realised I had this skill and passion right in front of me all along.
Writing.
Being a self-proclaimed ‘Grammar Nazi’ at school during the nineties and early noughties does not do great things for your popularity. In fact, professing a love of words, language, and how to structure a sentence to a class full of bronzed Britney fans only manages to put a target on your back!
I was not a cool teenager. I was intelligent and philosophical, but painfully underconfident. I watched most of my peers with a quiet confusion, usually with my nose in a book. Whilst others were crying over Robbie leaving Take That, I was exploring the Shire with Frodo, falling in love with Mr Rochester, or waiting for my own Hogwarts letter.
One day, my ideas and daydreams flew out of my head and onto blank pages and I began to write. Stories, poems, reviews, lyrics, descriptive text – you name it, I wrote it!
From then on, writing became my therapy, allowing me to express myself in a way nothing else has.
Looking back, I should have followed this path right away, trusting my talent from the start. As it happens, when the time came to enter higher education, I took a Drama and Performing Arts course, choosing to battle my confidence issues instead.
Always good to see something positive come out of these last few months. I suspect you are not alone – I think many people have had time to re-evaluate what is important to them this year. Keep the dream alive and best of luck going forward!
Beautifully expressed, Hayley. The performing arts will feed the writing as well as the confidence. You are so talented and able. Run with the dream. Good luck